I need to really slow down. Even more. Even so much more. I have to let myself do this with grace, I deserve it. I deserve to go with grace. I deserve to go with peace. I have to let myself be soft. I know who I am. I know who I will be. Right now it’s hard to imagine that i’ll get there. But get there I will. Sometimes I stop writing because things haven’t changed. I’m still working through this. I love this place. I love to be here. I have to imagine that it’s possible. I have to notice colours I haven’t seen before. I have to take note of the exits. I have to take the red flags and mourn. I have to do this with grace. I deserve it. I deserve to go with grace. I deserve to go with peace. New words will come. New words will come to me. A new world will come. A new world will come to me.
Untitled, Tania Peralta, Jan 2021